The Future is...

I remember when I was in grade school thinking. Crap! I have the rest of grade school, then middle school, then high school, and then college to go before I can bust out of this school thing. It felt so long. So maybe I am thinking the same sort of thing now. I think, crap! I am going to go to grad school at some point then work my butt off until I am at least 60.
That timetable is nothing new. What I realized was instead what comes along with that. In the past, all of my vacations had periods of down time. This most recent one had the barest minimum of downtime possible. Most of my time was scheduled with people to meet, friends to see, places to go, etc. There was not much time to just do nothing (then again I am not someone who does nothing well).

Essentially, I realized that from here on out my time is not my own. Even in Taiwan my days and weeks are scheduled pretty solid and since my vacation is limited I have to plan things out to do all that I want too.

The realization here is that the days of summer are long gone for me. For the rest of my life things will be on the clock, I will have a tight schedule. I have no choice but to accept that and I am not sure that I like it.